英语翻译What's it like to be desperate.[标题][正文]at's it like to b

英语翻译
What's it like to be desperate.[标题]
[正文]at's it like to be desperate?I think that is nothing more than did whetever the others order you to do,and be blamed after losing everything in the end.The most funny part of this,is that what cause my failure is actually something that the one who make all this happen forgot the last request.Now I don't want to find out who exactly should take response in this incident,and as a loser,I don't have the the right to do it.
Also,because there is no doubt that I was actually the one who cause this directly,I don't know what to say and to do next in my life,I don't know what to say to the people I've just failed,and I also feel guilty deep inside my heart.I blame myself thousnds of times since the catastrophy striked,but nothing will help any longer.I 'm not dare to face anyone who cares me,because the mistake could have been avoided,but the reality is that I didn't,and that's what killing me insinde.Maybe on the outside I look fine,but on the inside?I think part of me is dying.
Maybe I will complete this dying process,and change into the first thing that's done in my failed life.
I don't know if I have the right to say things like this,but if someone tells me that I'm not prepared for death,I will refused this advise for the first time in my puppet-like life,and embrace the coming dark with all my heart.
It could be so simple,so I'll see you again when you're finished.
Adieu.

在这样想绝望?我认为这只不过是没有whetever其他命令你做的事,并受到指责后,失去一切的end.The最有趣的一部分,是什么原因我的失败实际上是东西一个谁使这一切发生的忘记过去request.Now我不想知道谁到底应该采取应对在这一事件中,
作为一个失败者,我没有权利这样做.
此外,由于这是毫无疑问,我实际上是一个谁造成直接,我不知道该说些什么,并就下一步在我的生活,我不知道该说些什么的人我刚才失败,我也感到内疚内心深处我heart.I责怪我自己thousnds的时候,因为catastrophy striked ,但没有将帮助任何longer.I '米不敢面对任何人谁在乎我,
因为错误本来是可以避免的,但现实是,我没有,这就是杀害我insinde.Maybe在外面我期待罚款,但在里面?我想我的一部分,正在死去.
也许我将完成这项死亡的过程,转变的第一件事是我做失败的生活.
我不知道我是否有权利说这样的事情,但如果有人告诉我,我不准备对死亡,我将拒绝这一提醒第一次在我的木偶一样的生活,拥抱未来黑暗与所有我的心.
它可以是如此简单,所以我会再次见到你当您完成时.
(标题：什么是它想绝望）